"It's always Wonderful"

I have my days that I am unhappy and negative. I have my days where I just want to be plain grumpy.

But there's a guy I work with (who happens to be rather cute) who is always happy. I will ask him how he is, and he 'is wonderful, as always'. I have asked him, more than once, if he's always wonderful and he of course says yes. He gets rid of the negative and is always happy.

I envy that. I am not always unhappy or negative, but those times I am, it is hard to just get rid of it all. So I think it's great that he can have that and I think I'm going to strive to always be happy. I want to always be able to answer with "I'm Wonderful!!"

So, next time you ask me I hope I will be able to answer in the most positive way.

Driving along

This morning, on my way to work, I was already running a bit late. And then it happens to be raining. We all know how people drive in the rain - really slow. Normally I would just drive right on past them, but there were quite a few people and I don't change lanes as often (some call it 'weaving through traffic') when it's wet and rainy as I would when it's dry. Thus, I was stuck driving slow and was late for work. Good thing there was no rush this morning.

Another driving update: I was in a hurry leaving work a couple days ago (was eager to get home to see a good friend that was coming to town) and I didn't notice how fast I was going .... or the cop car that was sitting there clocking me. Thus I got pulled over. But somehow I am eligible to call, pay court costs, and not have it put on my record. I guess the tickets I got as an NC resident haven't transferred to my TN record - YAY! - and I won't have to worry about this one. At least, that's what the officer said, that I would be able to have it go away if I pay court costs. Now, hopefully he was right. Then no one can give me crap for a ticket, because as far as anyone with clout cares, I didn't get one recently. hahahaha....

I'm hoping that I will have driving stories soon (not that I like driving, but that I would like to go a few places). With work 4 days a week and school 2, I don't get much time off to go places. But we shall see what this fall/winter time brings. Hopefully some good memories.

I am no longer....I will soon be . . .

I am no longer living at the beach . . .

I am no longer unemployed . . .

I am no longer responsibility-less . . .

I am no longer sleeping well . . .

I am no longer near as tan as I was before . . .

I am no longer near as social as I once was . . .

I am no longer leaving my house for things other than school or work (not by choice, but because there's nothing to do) . . .

I am no longer around people (besides family) that I care a lot about . . .

I am no longer feeling as happy as I once was . . .

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I will soon be able to pay the credit cards off completely . . .

I will soon be finished with my Associate's Degree (May, but closer than before) . . .

I will soon be making what I want known a bit more . . .

I will soon be a bit more assertive in making things happen . . .

I will soon be planning a vacation out of the country . . .

I will soon be visiting those that I miss and care a lot about (although not sure when that will be) . . .

I will soon be finding a way to be happier and healthier . . .

I will soon be tan again (even if it isn't real) . . .

I will soon be falling in love with the Autumn season all over again . . .

How many days?

As of today, there are 135 days left in the year.
That doesn't seem like a lot, but I've had about 90 here at the beach and haven't done a whole lot with them.
So - what will I do with the remaining 135 days in the year?
Spend a few more days on the beach.
Travel back to Tennessee.
Get resituated in life there.
Start a new job zipping through the mountains.
Start another semester at a school I don't particularly like.
Hopefully have many, many wonderful heartfelt and meaningful conversations with ones I care about.
Spend some great, although fewer than wanted, days with amazing people.
Turn 25 and probably do nothing spectacular.
Try to fit in as many things as possible into my life.

What are YOU going to do with the remaining 135 days of this wonderful year of 2010?

Where are you from?

Shouldn't everyone actually answer with, "Heaven."
I honestly am not 'from' anywhere. I've lived in a few different states at different points in my life. But I wouldn't claim any of them as 'home' or where I'm from.
When people ask where I'm from, I want to ask in return, "At which point of my life are you asking about? Or are you asking 'where do I store the majority of my belongings'? I'm not sure what you are really trying to find out."
I am not like any of the places in which I have lived. I'm a mixture of them all. When people say they know I'm not from 'round here cuz you have an accent' then it makes me want to laugh. I don't have an accent, I just don't talk like the locals. I'm a nice, mixed breed of places, people, and accents.
And of course, once you tell them someplace, they start asking the typical follow-up questions. "What brings you here? How come you're here? Which place do you like better? Blah Blah Blah" And I really have no good answers for those. I'm here because this is where I chose to be at this time. I haven't really lived there that long so I'm not sure I can say I like one over the other. Eh...
I think I'll just start answering with "Heaven."
What better place is there to be from, anyway??

Passion

I saw a sign for a church recently that said "Is what you're living for worth dying for?" (It later was changed to say "Is what you're living for worth Christ dying for?" but I liked the first version.) And weirdly enough, the sign got me to thinking.
What am I living for?
It seems that everytime I listen to a few certain songs on a soundtrack, I tend to get pumped for life. They are so passionate about their life and their choices. But it gets me wondering what I'm doing with my life. What am I passionate about? What am I doing to make things happen? What am I living my life for?
I really don't know how to answer any of those questions. At all.
Sad, I suppose, that I have no passions about anything. Or at least not anything I can think of.
There's something about those songs and the passion in which they are sung that makes me want to feel that strongly about something. I just don't.
I want to have a burning passion for something. I want to find something to live for.

Driving is not a distraction

I drive.
I drive a lot.
I'm sick of driving alone.
When I drive, I think. I think about a lot of things. I think about nothing. I think about everything.
But I want to go on another drive. To New York City.
It's only just over 10 hours from where I currently am living. But I do NOT want to do that drive alone. Being alone in the car at any point in the next month or so might be a bad idea. Too much on my mind.
So I need a good distraction. I need a traveling partner. Not an international, adventurous one. Just one for the domestic travels and driving to places that are closer that I want to explore. If that traveling partner ends up being one for international travel as well, then all the better. But I won't hold my breath.
Regardless, I need to have distractions while I drive. I don't want to do the lone driving anymore. (Although I'm sure I probably will....for many more years....)