Monday, March 24, 2008

Strange girl

I was having a conversation the other day with a friend. And he mentioned that he wasn't used to a girl being as independent as I am. Especially not out in the mountains. The fact that I would go and climb in the cold water, get dirty, get hurt and not mind - that was something he wasn't used to. And he's also stated before that I'm an independent girl. And honestly - he's right.

I've never really been one to ask for help - ever. I don't expect people to do things for me - I kinda figure they won't. I don't let people help me, even when I could probably use it. I rely on myself and don't wait for other people. I very much like living by myself and I think that has a lot to do with being independent. I only rely on myself because I know I'll always be around to rely on. I will never leave, I will never lie (well, I'd know deep down if I was lying), and I will always be there for myself.

Another strange thing that keeps me from being a 'normal' girl... I lived in a warehouse for a month... I showered in a hose and at truck stops during that point in time. I don't mind going shopping and to the bathroom by myself. I like being outdoors. Mud is fun. Getting dirty - that's not a bad thing. I have very few clothes that I would prefer not to get dirty. I don't know how to cook. I clean because it needs to be done. I don't know about relationships and not sure if I want to be in a serious one. I don't want kids (at least not anytime soon). I'm not eager to get married. I don't oooh and aaaw over the 'cute' things all the time. I don't talk about my weight in front of boys. I don't share everything with everyone. I enjoy being by myself. I like getting dressed up, but I like those times of camping where I don't get to shower for a week. I'm not open with my feelings. I prefer NOT talking about myself. I don't like cats.

Oh - I'm a girl. And pretty normal in most ways. But there are some things that set me apart. For that I am glad. I would prefer to be even more different and unexpected, but I am what I am....

2 comments:

ReL said...

You're funny lol, independent women are the best kind ;-)
PS- he shouldn't say that he wasn't used to it... seeing as when I went hiking with him I got all kinds of dirty, since I slid down a mountain side and almost killed myself!

Alice Wills Gold said...

It is a great thing being an independent woman...I am one also, but you will come to find that being so independent has its emotional drawbacks....try and be emotionally dependent once in a while, it is good for the love life...oh, I could talk to you about this all day....the life stories I have to tell about this very issue of independence vs. intimacy.

We shall have a long talk on your next visit.