A few of the other realizations I had the other nite. . .
If I don't plan it, I don't go.
Meaning, if I'm not the one making the event happen, I'm not doing anything. Strange how that works. You would think that since you invite people to do things, they would reciprocate. But that's just not really the case in my situation.
I went from always doing things, to not wanting to plan things, so not doing anything. Very strange, very annoying, very sad.
Another realization - girls are almost as frustrating as boys.
I've noticed that when I was close friends with a guy, there would always be a lot of people around. And there were certain girls that I knew had a liking for this guy, but didn't really try anything because they thought he was otherwise taken (altho no evidence truly portrayed that).
Of course she (more than just one) and I were friends and chit-chatted every time we saw each other. I thought we were friends.
But it turns out that when this guy wasn't really around, they weren't talking to me near as much (I didn't notice at the time).
And now that he's around, but quite obviously not interested in me at all, they almost never talk to me. It's as though they were only friends with me so that they could squeeze their cute little butts in between us and steal his attention away. So that they could get an in with him and then shove me out of the picture.
Well, girls, let me tell you something... I'm out of the picture.
I was never actually in the picture.
He was/is only friends with me like he was/is with you.
But now I at least know where your loyalties lie.
Or at least what your lust leads you to do.
I guess that boys are worse.
But only because they play your heartstrings until you never want them to stop the song - and then they break 'em and move on.