Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Can't...Do... It...

Decisions. I just can't make them. And it seems that when I do, it could very well turn out to be the wrong kind of decision. Thus the reason I try to avoid all sorts of big decisions.

I get overwhelmed and stressed out. I don't like the thought of making the wrong decision. I don't like being unsure of how things are going to turn out. I don't like making decisions.

I made a decision. I feel right about it. I think it makes the most sense. For the summer I may not like it, but in the end, it's what should be done.
My lease is up - and I'm doing month-to-month payments. They are terrible. And definitely NOT worth what I'm paying. So I am going to move in with my old room-mate, Jamie. She's sharing a room with our mutual friend, then there's someone else, and there's me. I don't know that it's going to be super fantastic. But I will be saving money, bunches of money (hopefully) and keeping myself entertained through the summer. That's a good thing.

Of course the decision to live by myself really hurt a good friend. And then the decision to live with other people for 3 months hurt her even more. And I'M SORRY! But I just feel like this is the best decision. I think it makes the most sense for me. I feel bad and almost think that I should just get a house with a friend - the original plan - but I know I would not be happy. And that would be terrible....

1 comment:

Alice Wills Gold said...

You gotta do what you gotta do...don't worry about the others...they will either learn to understand or putter out of your life.

Easy for me to say....ask your mom how much I obssess worrying about other people and how their feeling effect me! AHHHHH!