Friday, August 1, 2008

Too Antsy

I'm not sure why I feel so on edge right now.
I just moved into the new apartment, it's not all cleaned up, decorated or really moved in yet. But it's pretty much there.
Yet I still feel so antsy and unsettled. And I can't figure out why.

I was talking with a friend a few minutes ago and he asked what I was up to this weekend. Sadly - I have nothing. And that really wigs me out. I need to be gone. I need to be doing something besides just organizing and getting things set up in the apartment.

I should be going somewhere. I should be having something going on. There should be something, anything. But there's nothing.

Is this feeling because I've been mainly on the go or had so many different things planned for so long, and now I have nothing??

I'm not convinced that's why. I think it's really because I need to be doing something and having more fun, traveling or doing unusual things.

I'm not sure what this feeling is all about. But I don't like it. And I may have to take a spur-of-the-moment trip to somewhere. But where?? Everyone I want to see is too far away....

What am I to do?

3 comments:

BrittbeeLynn said...

Are you going to the dance tonight? At least it's something ;)

KSHammond said...

Hey. .. at least you have your new apartment alright! I am still with Family in this one bedroom! (not like thats so bad, just need some space!). It will go away soon.

Alice Wills Gold said...

Stephanie...here's a scripture for you...one I need to hear all too often....(We are so much alike it really scares me sometimes)

"Be still and know that I am God."

Just chill out woman...enjoy the quiet side of life...enjoy just being able to sit and live...many people don't even have that luxury...you don't have to be productive every minute of every day...or if you do, you have to convince yourself that taking time off every day is a productive reinvestment in yourself.