Yes, I'm female. Yes, you're male.

But why does that mean that we can't be friends?
I am so sick of girlfriends being stupid and telling guys that they can't be friends with me because I'm a girl. I know how to be friends without it interfering with your relationship.
He and I have always been platonic - never even any snuggling - and then you tell him he can't be friends with me. What is THAT about??
This isn't the first time.
And what is up with the guy not having the balls enough to tell her he will stay friends because I've been around longer than her? Apparently the guys I'm friends with who give into their girls a bit too much need to stand up for themselves.
Or maybe the friendship wasn't quite as awesome as I thought it was. Either way - Girls quit telling your guys to stop being friends with females. If you are that insecure and afraid something will happen, maybe he isn't the guy for you. I mean. . . Really!?!?!
Gah!

Don't make me vomit....

Sometimes people just really make me sick. In many ways, but at this moment I am going to rant about displays of relationships.
Maybe I'm jaded and annoyed because I am not, nor have I really, nor is it looking promising that I will ever have a relationship. But I don't think I would be anything like these situations.
We don't care what amazing thing you're doing with your boy/girl friend this weekend.
We don't care whether he/she had a great time with the family - they're already friends so of course they'll enjoy each other.
We don't want to see every other picture of the two of you kissing or looking as though you are now joined at the hip.
We don't care to see every time you comment on how much you love them. Hello - love them without displaying it all over his/her wall every day....sometimes more than once.
We're so glad you care about each other, truly we are. Being happily 'in love' is fantastic - but please don't do it so much that you're making us all sick..... sheesh!!
(I don't mind all that often when people show how they feel about their significant other. It's just been certain people that cannot seem to comment about anything BUT their significant other. There's more to life than just that person. And I don't particularly care about the details of every move....Thanks anyway.)

Life Uncomplicated

Things are not so complicated.
I've had a lot of situations, people and things that tend to make things much more complicated than they need to be.
Just do things and enjoy things. I do not need complicated, confusing or anything of that sort. I make things complicated without anyone else's help. So really, let's not make it worse.
And some situations really don't need any complicated thoughts - it really isn't difficult.
Thus I am at the beach. Life here is uncomplicated, right? There's no reason to change that. No reason to make it complicated. Just enjoy it, love it and take it for what it is.
And on certain things I may need to be reminded of that, but mostly I am pretty certain that I will not be making things complicated. I like simple, happy, easy living....

Sigh of Relief

The past few weeks have been pretty crazy, busy and tiring. Which can be good, if it was something I wanted to be doing.
School is done for the semester.
The fundraiser for camp is finished - or at least everything I'll be doing.
And the summer has begun.
Yesterday I turned in everything and told the leaders that I was done and I'm leaving for the summer. I have been pretty stressed and freaked out on more than one occasion in regards to this ridiculous thing I was asked to help with. I was definitely not the right fit for it and I'm not sure why they thought I would be. Just because I like camping doesn't mean I should be asked to deal with 12-17 year old girls and be an example to them and whatever else. HELLO!!
After finished the fundraising garagesale (after 4 days of little sleep and constant running around), I breathed a sigh of relief. And after telling them I was leaving, that's an even bigger sigh of relief.
I have absolutely no responsibilities, no worries, and nothing to stress about (except how to fit everything into my car). I am going to have a summer of good times, adventures, and have it be all about me. I'm going to be selfish, simple, care-free and I just don't care about other people. (Which is not completely true, but I'm just going to be .....free.)
So - yes, I am moving to the beach for the summer. I am very much looking forward to it. I'm not sure who knows and who doesn't know, but I don't care anymore. I am very much looking forward to living somewhere I've always wanted to live. It's not as on the beach as I would've liked, but closer than now, so it works!
'Sigh'

List of Qualities

In a list of reasons they like you - because you're beautiful is always on top.... WHY?!?!?
I'm flattered, but I'm still complaining. Not sure what starts the conversation, but they always start with the same kind of quality - superficial.
You're beautiful.
You have such kissable lips.
You look good on my side.
Your eyes are gorgeous.
You have beautiful teeth.
And yes, those are all great and they make me feel wonderful. But honestly - if you want me to want to be with you, find another reason why you are interested in me. Maybe something like....
You make me smile.
I always want to be by your side.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I love talking with you about anything and everything.
Things that will last through time are the things that matter. What happens if I get into an accident and my face is scarred? Or my teeth fall out? Or I can't kiss for some reason? Then what would happen to the relationship?
So, here's a clue to all those males out there who are interested in pursuing me or wooing me (not that there are many): tell me things that matter, that have substance, and that will last. Things that aren't just about physical appearance and usually turned sexual.
Eh - just wish there was more to a relationship or feelings beyond the physical.... I'm still holding out for that guy who wants me for more than just the way I look.

Phone Courtesy

There was always a rule in my house while growing up that you were not allowed to call anyone after 9:59 pm. It was mostly because you'd be calling the house (this was before everyone had cell phones) and it might wake someone up. And you wouldn't want to call before 9 am in case someone was sleeping in.

Apparently we were some of the few people that had that rule.

It's one thing when you are really good friends with someone - call anytime of day or nite. And the better friends you are, the more you can get away with that. I am actually okay with any of my friends calling/texting anytime of day or nite, but if we aren't friends like that....it's iffy....
Yes - most people know that I work and go to school so I'm usually up and going pretty early. But you don't actually know for sure when that is. And when I ignored your phone call the day before because you knew I didn't want to talk to you, what makes you think I will answer it before 9 am the next morning?? My alarm hadn't even gone off yet....thanks a whole lot for waking me up.

It's one thing to be awoken sometime in the nite or early in the morning with a fun text from a friend or significant other, but it's a completely different story when it's someone you don't have that kind of friendship with.... Oh well. Maybe next time I'll call and wake them up late at nite.

Ps - most of the time it's perfectly acceptable to call/text me anytime. It truly is. I was just frustrated with and didn't want to converse with this person. Then they call before my alarm....

What took so long?

I understand that with the weather changes, people's moods change.
But WHY can't we all have fun and do things in the winter too?? I would be totally okay with driving in the snow, being out in the cold.
I really don't like that the only way to add color to the bleak and dreary ugliness of winter is slitting my wrists of complete and total boredom/depression/etc.
Now that it's spring, everyone seems to be out more, doing more things, and having fun. What was wrong with a couple months ago? Couldn't we have done it then too??
Sheesh!
I guess I can't complain, it's Spring and people are going out. So I'll just have to try and keep them from being hermits next winter.