Brain fart

I have had lots of fun ideas to post about. Things to say. Etc.
But for some reason today, I'm just not getting any inspiration.
And having some serious brain farts. I can't really focus on anything. I have no desire to do homework/any work.
I have a lot to think about, do, decide, etc - but can't seem to keep my thoughts straight or focused.
Definitely a Brain fart aka Stupor.

Innocence of Youth

While sitting here listening to a little girl (mom is babysitting this morning) I realize just how cute and innocent kids are.
She's excited because she'll be starting T-ball (actually Weeball since she's so little) and is going to have a pink helmet, cleets, and maybe even a pink bat. Aw.... the joys and simplicity.
I loved the days when your best friend is the person you sat with on the bus, when getting frozen juice push-pop at lunch was wonderful, when homework was a page of spelling or simple math, and when being silly all the time was acceptable.
Aw - the stress-less, joyful, easy days of being a kid. Why, when we grow up, do we insist on making life difficult?? It doesn't always have to be.
Let's be kids again!!

Changing Seasons, Changing Lives

It seems that with the change of the season, there are changes in lives. Whether it's small and simple, or big and extreme.
I was recently talking to a friend who has decided to do a complete career change, which includes going back to school and everything. DANG! That's a serious change. Plus she's moving to a different place and other things as well. But it's so worth it and such a good choice for her.
My season changes lately have been how many layers of clothes to wear. Although I am getting my haircut this next week, so that's a small change. I need to make more and I need to make some serious ones. But I really just don't have the motivation to do so. Or more correctly - the sane mind to make the decisions.
I have realized however, that another great friend is attempting to make changes and decisions in his life as well. And he's having a tough time with it. Apparently it's normal to stress and not be able to make decisions that are going to affect you for the rest of your life. Glad to know I'm not alone with it, although I don't wish such things upon someone else either.
But with the sun shining more (*knock on wood cuz this week's weather might not be as good) and registration deadlines looming ahead, it looks like these changes and decisions need to happen soon. Even if I don't make a drastic change, I will need to make some serious decisions and really make living life more exciting.
I told my mom the other day (you can tell I'm slightly bored, thus the rambling....) that I need to start doing things that I've always wanted to do, I need to start making things happen, and I need to start doing things and going places even if I have no one to go with me. If I waited for someone else to join me in some of my adventures, then they'll never happen. So I've gotta start doing them myself. Not as exciting, but it makes things happen.

Raincoat Dilemma

I have been in need/want of a raincoat for a few years. It's not always cold rain, but who wants to be wet all day just from running to and from your car?

So I looked at a store that I usually find is right on the Bullseye *hint* with cute clothes. Or at least I think they have some cute clothes, accessories and such. But I don't always like to spend that kind of money. Thus I looked at the raincoats, but couldn't quite get myself to purchase one.

While in Utah visiting a good friend of mine, we went thrift-store shopping, just to see what we could find. And by this time I had kind of given up looking for a rain-coat. But what did we find? A very cute black and white polka-dot raincoat that has stripes on the other side (it's reversable, but i like the polka dots outside better). Luckily enough, it was only $5!!

I'm not big into buying 2nd hand clothes - call me a snob if you want - but I think it's a childhood aversion to such. I have, however, slowly gotten out of that and am willing to at least look. And I'm glad I did.

A brand-new raincoat for $20+ or a just-as-cute-almost-new raincoat for $5? I think we all can figure out the math on this one.

(I am my own photographer. It gets old, but when you need a picture, you're always there.)

Sunshine!!!

I am a firm believer that the sun is an anti-depressant.

I'll be honest - I've been down in the dumps, depressed, angry and extremely unhappy lately. I hate to admit it cuz I've never been like that before. But I really was (and still am now and then).

But the sun is shining!! And the day is wonderful!!

There are probably a few factors that led to the happy day, but most definitely the sunshine. I walked out of class yesterday and it was warm and sunny. And my mood went from 'whatever' to 'happy' and it stayed all day.

It's amazing what some sunshine can do.

So I also am a firm believer in living somewhere tropical and warm all the time. Thus I am looking into becoming a cabana girl on the beach where the sun shines more often than not and it doesn't get below 65 degrees all year long.

Any suggestions on the destination?

Used to - Can I go back?

I used to be a player.
I know that sounds odd. But there were plenty of times in my life when I was with one guy or more and we had our good times without any emotion being involved. I didn't have any problem with it. I enjoyed it. And - this is terrible - I usually didn't feel bad if the guy ended up liking me and I didn't feel the same.
Somehow, somewhere, I started to get emotions involved with things. What the hell?!?! I would much prefer spending time with these male friends, whether kissing is involved or not, and just enjoy it. Not worry about whether he cares about me, if I care about him, is it going to go somewhere, is it not, does it matter?
Yet - it does. Maybe not right away, but eventually things start to change. Sometimes for the better - but in my case it's usually for the worse. How do I change that? How do I go back to being care-free and not think about it?
Is it the age? Is it the fact that I don't want to be single forever? What changed? And how do I get back the carefree, thoughtless days of before??

Eye Candy

I am a candy addict. But I really like the Eye Candy. I would prefer if it was more of an interaction, but candy is good too! And what a better way to start the day than with good-smelling eye candy?
I was at the gas station - of all random places - getting my morning fix and he was in line checking out. Mmmmm!!!
He looked at me. Saw him looking at me twice. But is that a good thing? Or was it more of looking at me cuz I was one of 'those' kind of girls? It's hard to tell.
But then I walked up to the counter as he left and BOY did he smell good!!
What a nice way to start the day!! Now I just need to learn to say, "Hello" and "Good Morning" to people. Then maybe I'll make new friends.
As I read last nite:
Strangers are just friends waiting to happen.
I would've been okay with that cutie as my friend!!